July 16th, 2007


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When it comes right down to it, I suck at keeping a journal. I don't update often (not with real life stuff, anyway), and when I do, it's usually only a couple of lines, or a meme. Something like that.

I tried keeping a paper journal after my nervous breakdown ages and ages ago, at the encoragement of the people at the nut house. It was one of those felt covered, hard backed things you can buy at Waldenbooks. It was red. My mother bought it for me.

It's one of the very few things I've managed to hold on to over the years, and it's not even a quarter of the way full. I stopped writing in it after only a couple of weeks... about the time the medication they had me on really started kicking in. About the time I stopped being able to write. I've never used it for anything but a journal, despite sometimes being tempted to. I don't know why I keep it, except that it's mine.

I've stopped seeing the shrink. She wants me to take meds, and I just won't do that. I've got lots of really good excuses. I can't afford them. I don't like the way I feel when I'm on them. I don't want to be chemically dependant.

I know I shouldn't stop. Gods alone know I've got enough issues to keep me in therapy for the rest of my life, but I refuse to be hounded over the drugs.

Besides, I've got you people. You listen to me bitch for free.

Year of the Bastard

It never fails.

When I was first introduced to the wonderful madness of Transmetropolitain by my brother, he didn't have book 3: Year of the Bastard. It was the LAST Transmet trade I read.

I regularly check it out from the library (as I am too broke to buy the series and ended up selling it the last time I actually had it for myself), and EVERY SINGLE TIME, the LAST one I'm able to get ahold of is Year of the Bastard.

I find it a little odd.

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Okay, does anyone know if the Ultimate X-Men/Fantastic Four crossover was ever published in Trade format, and where it might be found? I tried hunting for it on the Marvel website, but that thing ALWAYS gives me a huge headache.